Sunday, January 23, 2011

Family Canoe Trip

Here's to warmer times :)!! This was back in September!!

The Huron River is very close to the house and they have an awesome park with walking and running trails, play grounds and canoes. We went one afternoon and had a jolly fun time!!

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First days!!

Three year old preschool:
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Four year old preschool:
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Kindergarten:
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and...J lost his second tooth!

First Day of School

Better late than never. I will get this thing up to date!

I think the first day of school is so exciting. I was excited for Douglas and Jackson. Their first day was the same day and I think I had butterflies with them. I was a little nervous about Jackson in all day kindergarten, but it has been so awesome for both of us :). The school has a lot of extras so it takes up time in the day and makes it fun for J. They have art, PE, Music, Computers, Library etc. I have been able to volunteer every Tuesday which is fun for both of us. Jackson stops to kiss me every time he walks by. I don't stop him, because I know it will stop soon enough and I want to enjoy his sweetness before he is too cool for mom!

J chose his own shirt...red, of course and wanted Aebleskivers for breakfast.

He had a little rough start in school with getting used to obeying Ms. Sangeorzan and the she is in charge, but he has settled into things now and most days are good days. Hooray. He is a sharp kid and loves learning. He also loves playing! I signed him up for soccer in the fall, but he wasn't really interested (to his credit, it was run really lame). I think I will give him a year off and try again in 1st grade. I think we will try karate this spring and swimming.

It is hard to believe that we are more than half way through the year. Even harder to believe that we are more than 1/4 way through business school. Yikes!!

It is so hard to watch the kids grow up so fast, but it is really exciting too. I love to see who they are becoming. Five has been such a redeeming age for Jackson. I worried from 2-5 about what I had gotten into with him. He was busy, a fib teller, defiant, you know, all the normal stuff that makes parents crazy. This past year with him has been nice though. He is a sweet, lovable boy. Granted, he has his moments, but they are fewer and farther between and to that I say, Yay!!
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Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Cold Winter Day

I sort of hate that I have to come up with titles for all my posts.

It snowed all day today. It is so beautiful. Paige was at preschool when it started which made me really nervous. I saw the snow piling up and the street covering and I started to worry about whether it would be horrible to drive and get her. I left extra early and it was really no big deal. Once I fixate on something, though, I have a hard time letting it go. I really dislike driving in the snow and feel very uncomfortable doing it.

Paige is so happy to be in preschool. As I drove her over I would look back and she had a permagrin. It is so rewarding to do something for your children that makes them happy. Quite the antithesis to what I get after slaving over a hot stove to make them dinner only to get gripes about why I don't make what they like. I asked Jackson what exactly it is that he "likes" to which he responded, "I don't know". Nice. Typically I have a firm rule that if you complain about my food you are excused until you can come back with a good attitude and so graditude (at least faked) for what I made, but I was truly curious what it is that he would "like". Now I know...he likes whatever I didn't make.

Jackson always begs me to play wii with him. This is good in theory except that I get so competitive. I have to try so hard not to get mad when he get in my way and makes me die. It is really hard some times. How sad is that? It is really sweet, though, that his real reward involves me playing with him.

When I volunteer in his class on Tuesday morning I think he comes to give me a hug and kiss at least 10 times. Very sweet and I know it won't last much longer which makes my heart ache a bit. He is growing up so fast. I already mourn the loss of his innocence and he is still so innocent. It is just a matter of time though and that is sad.

He came home yesterday telling me all about MLK and how he fought peacefully for freedoms. He informed me that he wasn't going to hit Paige anymore, but peacefully deal with their problems. Haha...I will believe that when I see it. Glad to see that he is listening and absorbing things in school.

Without being totally braggy, but braggy none the less, Jackson is by far the smartest kid in his class. Having spent the entire year in the room each week, it is very interesting and rewarding to watch him. He is quick at learning and understands abstract ideas. He is a great reader. It makes me so very proud of him. I hope he develops a love for learning too.

Miss P is a firecracker as always. She can be so sweet, but boy can she be feisty too. Wowzers. Don't cross her! She sat down a few months ago and wrote her name out on paper. I was amazed. I have never taught her to do that. She just watches her brother and learns while he does.

She spends 90% of her life in costume. Her favorite is to put one of the Costco princess dresses on with a tutu underneath to make it nice an poofy.

She loves to play in the snow, help me cook, and put on dance performances. She is a girl through and through and can put together some pretty sweet outfits!

Off to bed. Douglas started class again and since he gets up much earlier than I do, I try to be nice and get to bed early-ish. We always try to go to bed together. It is a nice tradition.

Thursday, January 06, 2011

Checking in...

I have been feeling a little overwhelmed and down about life this past week. It could very well just be the after the holiday blues. I just feel so inadequate sometimes. That, along with having a sore throat again just put me into a bit of a funk. Oh well, hopefully it will pass soon.

Paige started preschool today. With the money you have sent we are able to pay for it and she is as pleased as punch. She is such a social little thing. I walked her into class today and showed her around. I then asked if she wanted me to stay or leave and she quickly told me I can leave. The teachers told me that she acted as if she had always been a part of the group...talking to everyone, putting on dance shows. She makes me laugh and she makes me proud.

Then we get home and she whines and demands...she will point her finger at me and scold me when she doesn't like what I am doing...oh the joys of a three year old.

J has been delightful this week. I forgot to set my alarm last night and we woke today 15 minutes before J had to be at school. We all worked together though and he was able to dress, eat, get a lunch made and get to school on time. Thank heavens Douglas was here to help! Jackson has been happy and on Tuesday he wanted to surprise me so he went around and collected all the trash on his own (his chore that day). He also wanted to clean his room and surprise me the other day. It is so nice when he is in good spirits.

The snow is coming down. It is beautiful and so far the cold doesn't bother me too much, though I really need to get more thermal garments and warm socks!! We are planning to go to the temple Saturday and I am hoping they have a distribution center by the temple. If not, I will have to order online, though I have heard the shipping is really slow.

I am so thrilled for Holly and Christian. I will go out next Thursday and take newborn photos of their little guy. It will be nice to have time to spend with everyone without the responsibility of the kids. Douglas will stay here (he has no class fridays) and will try to study when he can. It will be tough, but he is always supportive and I think he is really hoping to find more balance this semester. Let's hope.

I am constantly torn as to whether I want to run my business anymore. I love it, but it really adds a lot of stress and anxiety in my life, which spills over into how I parent. I feel that I am doing something wrong if I don't work. But, I know I am not. I am just so much happier when I can focus on being a mom and running a house. I need to give it some real prayer and thinking. Maybe I will just do what comes, when it does and not look for work. I don't know.

Sorry if I sound like Debbie Downer. I try not to be this way. It affects the whole house when I am. Douglas and I started Weight Watchers again and I feel grouchy about not being able to eat comfort food :). I have the happy thought of knowing I am heading out to visit soon. The kids are thrilled and it will be such a nice time.

Sunday, January 02, 2011

Happy New Year

I am excited for a new year. I like new beginnings. I like to start over. I have lots of great aspirations that hopefully will come to fruition this year. Here they are:

1. Learn how to use Adobe Illustrator and do some of my own designing. I already signed up for an online course that begins Tuesday and I am really excited. I love learning new things.

2. Read the Book Of Mormon. I can't tell you the last time I finished it. I seem to get to Enos and start over. I am almost to Enos now so I am well on my way. I feel like my spirituality has slipped since I had kids and I want to improve on that. I also notice that I am a lot more patient when I am focusing on these things. I pray for patience a lot and I know that I am blessed with it when I am allowing the Spirit into my life.

3. Send out birthday cards (on time). This has been a goal for the last two years and I don't think I made it out of January. I will be better this year!!

4. Be more frugal and spend less money (kind of a necessity). This is so hard for me. I like my projects, but I have so many things I can already do that I really need to focus on those things and start spending less. This also means that I need to keep up on my budget. Boo. I mean YAY!

5. Get back to my fighting weight. This way I can possibly consider having another child. I know, that sounds lame, but I don't want to start out heavier than usual. It will just be that much harder afterwards.

6. Focus more on my business. As much as I have loved not working, I miss it too and we can really use the income. I just want to control it more and not feel like I have to say yes or fit people in. I think part of that is gaining more confindence in my work. This is a constant struggle for me.

7. Be more organized. This includes paying bills on a scheduled date and dedicating a day each week to update Quickbooks. I am a horrible bookeeper, but I am hoping this is the year to improve that. I also want to figure out how to keep my office neater. Any suggestions?

I think this is it for now. Glad to write them out. Now, I gotta get busy. Glad going to bed earlier isn't one of them because I would be off to a bad start!